Showing posts with label voices in my head. Show all posts
Showing posts with label voices in my head. Show all posts

1/06/2018

Old Sta Mesa

     Designed by the architect and urban planner Daniel Burnham,  (Yes, he's the Burnham behind Baguio's Burnham Park) Manila should have been a beautiful city! Just like Baguio something went wrong somewhere and now it is a mess.

     I grew up in a middle class neighborhood in Sta. Mesa, Manila. I have to say I owe a lot to my parents for I had the best childhood, enjoying the best of both worlds; a right mix of a sheltered upbringing in the most Filipino setting you can imagine at that time. 

     I grew up as a neighborhood celebrity I must say as my mom was the community doctor. People almost curtsied when they would see my siblings and me. They loved my mom who was not just a doctor but a gifted one. She took care of everyone and took care of them well.

     Our neighborhood was not spared though from the messing up of Burnham's master plan. Sadly now it is chaos!

     There are emission testing facilities, herds of tricycles,  (before people walked) an even bigger herd of people (ugh) an ice delivery facility, mid-rise and ugly apartment buildings. When did it all start? When people stopped looking and caring which includes the city government down to our barangay.

     My parents will have to leave our family home soon and though in my mind I want to cuff, put them in straight jackets and transport them to a better home and neighborhood myself tomorrow.  I am sure to them the old Sta Mesa neighborhood is what they remember more. So it made me think of the little things I had growing up that made our neighborhood a good place then.


1. The Sky


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     I used to love looking up to the big, clear sky. My mom's clinic was a good 20 meters from our house and I would walk there oh, may be at least five times a day and 'pester' her. You know how kids are. During summer time there would be kites flying those skies. NO tall apartment buildings yet or peeping skyscrapers or flyovers just a big, clear blue sky!

2. Pebbled Sidewalks



      If you look down on the other hand, is a sidewalk maybe 2 meters of pebbles and dirt. During rainy days, my challenge was not to get mud on my legs but I always did.

     Actually we had no sidewalk and to this day we still don't. Now though it is just dirt, no more pebbles and it has narrowed down to barely a meter or none at all as cars and delivery trucks are parked every where now.

3. Aling Nene's Stall

     Just a house away from our house is a stall made of wood and roofed with galvanized steel, Aling Nene's. In the mornings she sells cooked food and you'd see people sitting on benches eating around her small  L-shaped stall. I remember her miswa with pork blood. Yeah, I know sounds gross but the blood was cubed like gelatin. But it was not just her miswa that I remember. You know it's summer when she starts selling halo-halo in the afternoons. I found it so cute how her ingredients were placed in enamel plates and kept in a homemade glass cabinet with wooden framing. I had the pleasure of leaning to eat my halo-halo slowly at my own pace. Each summer I would add an ingredient but my first favorites where the red sago and pinipig. =-)


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     Come Christmas time, she has puto bumbong. I think her puto bumbong is still the best next to Ampy's'


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4. Si Ong

      Before I get to my mom's clinic is where I usually, not usually ALWAYS bump into Mr. Ong. He is usually sitting there squat position. He would usually grab my hand and since I don't think he knows my name and he only knows me as his doctor's daughter, he calls me. "Baby." He engages me in a little small talk then I have to wriggle myself out of it because it is gonna take forever. So, "Bye, Mr. Ong!" RUN!!!!


5. Aling Minda' s Drugstore


      Across the clinic is a drugstore owned by a childless couple. I only remember the wife's name, Minda.I knew they were desperate for a child and sometimes I would see Aling Minda wearing a maternity dress and I felt sad for her. But that was not my only issue with Aling Minda. As a kid, I loved Aspilets. Whenever I had spare change I would cross the street and buy Aspilets to nibble on. Aling Minda had no clue no one was sick. hehe!



6. Aling Payang and Her Slippers

      I felt like a princess every time Lola Payang would measure my feet and make me choose from the leather swatches she had to make slippers. I remember them to fit so well.

     Last I heard Lola Payang's and her family moved to Forbes Park and shifted their business to beauty products. No more slippers. =-P
     
7. Mang Totoy and His Paper Parols

     Each year before before the Christmas season, We would take last year's parol or paper lantern and have Mang Totoy replace the Japanese paper and trimmings around it. Each year's parol was unique from the last. Thanks to Mang Totoy. 

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8. Aling Dolor's Bananaque and Camoteque

     I can still smell it the mix of burning sugar and kerosene... This is what will slowly engulf you as you near the stall of Aling Dolor. She cooks bananaque and camoteque everyday. Aling Dolor is chubby, curly haired and had bad teeth. I was shocked to find out that she used to be a salesgirl in a department store, pretty in heels and all. She married Mang Carding our neighborhood carpenter who was a drunk which in my young mind explained why Aling Dolor lost her beauty and youth early. 


9. Our Neighborhood Bakery

     Perhaps my favorite and most frequented place in the whole neighborhood was the bakery. I grew up loving and eating monay, alembong, kababayan, putok, ensaymada etc. Come to think of it, my love for bread (and carbs) started on bakery bread. 

     I still remember the brown paper bag that the storekeepers twisted to close, the sound of it crumpling and the smell of freshly baked bread. Life was too sweet!


     Wanna know more about these breads? Click here.

   
10. Fiestas

     As a child, I dreaded fiestas in our neighborhood. Fiestas then meant blocked streets, lots of drunks and noise that lasted until wee hours of the morning. But I do like the Fiesta because of the way strangers were welcome to eat in our home. My parents usually hosted a party then and whoever comes even the old man selling brooms (who used to scare me) partakes of what we have prepared. 


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     As I try to end this entry, in my heart I find not just the ten memorable people and things from my childhood that I just wrote about but also the rest of the people I met. We lived in a different world then, a totally different neighborhood. People were good, more honest, kinder. I close my eyes and pray they all have or had good lives. It was a time when people actually connected in the truest meaning of community. I can name so much more; Aling Susan the meat vendor in the wet market who used to give me tocino, Mang Nestor, our mailman, Kima, the Chinese grandmother who lived across us, our playmates Tin-tin, Ton-ton, Lala, Vangie and Rommel, my sister's playmates, Minye, Russel and Not-not. The list goes on and on.....

   

3/10/2013

Waiting To Exhale

     I woke up very early this morning with too many words jumbled up in my head. I realized though I hate to admit it I am bored.

     For a time I had so many things in my head. You won't believe it. I had at least two projects in the works each time, design school, magazine work, collage art classes, building admin work plus my family. CRAZY, now that I am thinking of it. Of course I was on my way to a 'burnout' if I can call it that. But before that I began the painful process of giving up some until I was left with my practice and building admin work and of course my family.

     With the Philippine summer just around the corner, H and I have things planned for the kids. Luckily my projects have been pushed back a bit and I can relax and enjoy this summer with the kids with so much flexi time. But still why am I bored......

     No, I will not go all dramatic and say why, oh why has my life come to this....THEN I asked myself am I aware that I am here even? Wow, my answer is NO. Yes, I have streamlined my nasty schedule but I have not savored my life now. My brain is still on 'fried' mode. Somehow I have not gotten it to cool down and I could not. 

     I knew a new cycle of collage classes began yesterday and if there is one thing I want to still do is that. I found myself tearing through old magazines. The art of collage has always been introspective for me. Hmmm...maybe this will help. 

     I found an abandoned painting of Yellow to use as my base. Yellow is a perfectionist and though H and I have yet to teach her some more about life is a box of chocolates theory we need to contend with her frustrations. This painting is one of them.



     After two hours of tearing, pasting, cutting I was staring at this.... 

  
     Now I know where I am. It is exactly where I wanted to be...And where I am now is a gift...to just be....


to E X H A L E!

 Read more about Toots Magsino's Collage Classes  here.
    

7/21/2012

Gathering Moments




    Seventeen years ago, I said good-bye to my Lolo. (grandfather) He was 84, had lived a full life, raised wonderful kids and spoiled 12 grand kids. I cried. I cried for my Lola (grandmother) whom he left behind, my mom and myself.

     I thought that was that but I was wrong.

     These past days, it feels like my family and I are faced with losing him all over again and sadder still that this is brought about by another loss. My Tita Linda, my mom’s cousin who used to care for the family's, call it ancestral home in Cabuyao, Laguna passed away last week.

     Even as an architect, I still do not know what to make of the house because it is more of a mid-century chalet than a grand old house since the latter regretfully was torn down in the 60’s. Even as a little girl, I was not impressed by it. It is not a beautiful house but there are other things I loved about it which are synonymous to wonderful childhood memories and those of my dear Lolo.  I remember picking fruits in the yard, playing hide and seek, ball games. My cousins and I had endless fun and laughs.

     With Tita Linda's passing, no one knows what will become of this house, the home of my grandfather's family. I took lots of photos when I was there for the wake. I do not know why I just feel this will be good0bye....

     Allow me to share them with you....Pleasant weekend!

The driveway leads up to a chapel.
This is the prettiest part of the house. These are the living and dining room windows which open to a fish pond.

Across the pond is a grotto that is framed by a big, concrete staircase that used to lead to the kitchen of the old house. Feeding the fishes with bread was a simple yet favorite pastime.
This is how it looks like from the entry of the yard,
Another view of it. My cousins and I loved climbing to the top when we were little.
A second statue of the Virgin Mary faces the front of the house.
A big lanai with a mix of ambassador chairs and wrought iron garden sets welcome you before entering the house. We usually hang out here.
 This is the living and dining room. It is really a mix of stuff.

Going up the second floor are framed photos of the whole clan We hardly went upstairs..
My late grandaunt's collection of trinkets.
I just love vintage Pyrex.
The house is surrounded by a big garden with another pond. I used to be scared to cross this bridge. I think I still am now.
Quaint cement tiles

12/22/2007

Let's be silent....


I want to be silent for a few minutes and try to see where I am in this whole holiday chaos. My kids, especially my son Blue is tooooo excited over his gifts. It becomes overwhelming since it is all he thinks about. He gets impatient and even worth strangling. He, he! but hey, he is a kid and Christmas is really the kids' turf after all Christmas is about a child....
I approach Christmas with a bit of regret. It has been a busy year and honestly I could have done preparations earlier. I actually hate being part of the Christmas rush. So next year I plan to make a countdown calendar....

Speaking of calendars, I made a novena calendar for my two kids this year. It has paper windows stuck on them. Since December 16, they would open a window each day and read a good deed and a prayer or set of prayers that go with it. I got the idea from my Mom who gave me a set of cards similar to my windows when I was small. She has kept it with her all these years and was given by a nun when she was a little girl. I enjoyed following the cards as a girl so I tried to make some for my own children now. I believe I have began another Christmas tradition. In spite of the lost chance to get organised for the Holidays at least I was able to make the novena.
This afternoon, we go to a party with my high school friends. I have had, in this week alone 2 friend lunches/ breakfasts, two Christmas parties. My family has three more to go! Whew!!! But I can't complain. We are enjoying a wonderful Christmas Season and are so blessed. It has been a good year. I can't stop being thankful. I refuse to even think of whatever challenging situations my family went through this year - the good always out weighs the bad - always!
Finally, a monk once said, " To live deeply, you have to live slowly." :) So each day I try slow down, breath, live as joyfully as I can.